Sunday, November 1, 2009

Work, work, work...and love

I've been hard at work on my etsy art bites, but nothing new there. I've been really depressed about it for the past couple of weeks. The usual reasons, of course. So, last week I decided that I would start applying for jobs again. What did I have to lose besides free time? I didn't really expect any employers to call me back. I've been unemployed for almost two years now, and I haven't had any real prospects. Well, guess what? I was contacted not even 12 hours after posting my resume to a job sight. I was over joyed. I coordinated an interview within two days, and on thursday I was offered a job. A REAL JOB. I was offered a full time job making more money than my husband! But...I had to turn the offer down. I finally got a job offer, but I couldn't take it because I'm a full-time student. This is my last semester at the community college, and in December I'll have an associate degree. It's important to note that the only reason why I went back to school was because I couldn't find a job in my field. I'm so angry about this! I was so tempted to drop all of my classes. The drop deadline is November 1st, and it would have worked out perfectly.

Except, not really. I wouldn't be graduating in December, and this would set me back by a whole semester. I called my mom at her job to ask her what I should do. I expected her to yell at me for being stupid enough to turn down a job in this economy. She didn't. She told me everything that I felt in my heart. "It's not worth it. You can get more money."

My husband felt the same way, but I could tell that he was a little disappointed. I don't blame him. He's been supporting me since I was laid off, and I feel useless. I can't get a job in my field, and neither of my businesses are bringing in a consistent income.

What can I do? The only thing that I've ever been good at was art, and I can't even make a living doing that. That makes me...worthless. I've been working super hard for the past year: going to school full-time, working (below a living wage), and trying to support myself making art and jewelry. Yet, I have nothing to show for it.

Then, the weekend came. On Saturday, not only did we take our daughter Trick or Treating, but we also celebrated the 1st year of our marriage. After weeks of crying myself to sleep, that day made me cheer up a bit.

Mayoree played the role of a not so happy devil :)  BTW, this is not a costume.  She has horns, and a tail all the time :-)

The cake, courtesy of my dad-in-law.  I told him that I wanted a cake that was creepy, and had blood splatter and dripping blood.  He said he made the 'blood' using granulated sugar and red food coloring.

We also had a chance to pig out on snacks.  Mayoree ate a ton of candy.  She stayed up until 2 am watching scary movies with us.

So, I have to say that the weekend really improved my mood.  I didn't get a chance to work on any art, but I enjoyed myself.  I'm still trying to get over the flu, but I'll live.  I think that I may have pnemonia....but I don't have the time to go to the doctor.  Maybe next week.  I just hope my inhaler lasts until then.

BTW, this is me and my husband from our honeymoon last year.  We had a TON of fun in Toronto.  It's the coolest place on earth.


Lemon Shortbread said...

I think you made the right decision to finish school. You'll never know... a better job might await you! And true about the shops having no bite, just keeping the shop to display myself out there =)

Tiffany said...

Oh, I hope you're right! I've been working really hard lately to stock my shop. I'm hoping that something will come of it. I feel the same way about my shop...It's really just turned into a convienient way to showcase my art.

And thanks for dropping by! Always a pleasure to hear from you:-)

Maria-Thérèse said...

Don't ever say you're worthless. To me it sounds amazing that you were offered a job that quickly!! Jobs are hard to come by here as well, hard to even spot an opportunity. You go to college, you create art (perhaps you just need to be seen more? exhibit? advertise? put up flyers?) and you have a beautiful daughter and a husband and a home! That's a LOT and you did it yourself! Plus you look super cute in your avatar.

PussDaddy said...

Do not beat yourself up. Art is a hard sell anywhere, but especially on line. That doesn't mean your stuff is not good. And OMG don't say that angel baby is a little devil-you take it back right now-she's a cutie. You have a nice looking family. And stop being so hard on yourself.


Tiffany said...

Maria-Therese: One is my biggest faults is how critical I am of myself. I just can't help myself. I know what you mean, though I had no idea that it was this bad everywhere. I guess that I was just being naive.

PussDaddy: You know you're right. Art is a really hard sell. I've been asking my professors advice on how I might be able to get into some art galleries. Keep your fingers crossed!

And that girl is E-V-I-L for a 3 year old! JK. She's my best friend:) She inherited her evil ways from her father. LOL.

BTW, I'm glad that I found you again. I missed ya over on Etsy!

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